Sometimes I wonder about why life has so many ups and downs? When you are at your pink mood, something happens which gets you down from sky to earth. Yes, everyone tries to not get de-motivated, to not take criticism by heart but somewhere in mind it always gets stored.
Couple of incidents of my life have taught me to not worry about people who want you to feel down, by cricising you or by any other reason. But sometimes I cannot control my emotions. Just yesterday, we attended a small family function. As my 1.5 year old di not feel well since morning (he had cold), he did not leave for a moment. My relatives wanted to play with him, wanted to talk with him, wanted to make him dance……but nothing happened. And what everyone concluded was – today, he is not in mood and keeps crying. It hurt. My son is very much a public person. He loves people around, can mix with them easily and can enjoy with them. But yesterday he was not able to do so as he was not well. People kept telling (with different expressions) me that we should make him learn to mix etc. I did not say anything and accepted but while coming back to home, I burst into tears. I was so much angry with my son that he did not do well in function and cried. I wanted him to perform but he did not and as a parent I could not accept it. That was the moment, my husband held my hand and made me understand that he is too little to expect from. I completely agreed. Then I thought – why should I make my son perfrom among people? Why do I want my son to be at his best all the time? He is a human being and a kid so he can definitely not follow the common moods and joys. I was so shameful on my thoughts that he did not perform. Said sorry to him and kissed him. So innocent he is. He just smiled and hugged me.
Learnt a big lesson yeterday night. I do not want my son to be a performer in public. Its ok it he follows his own mood and does not do what I ask him to do all the time. I have to accept that he is still a toddler and he needs his own space to enjoy the most precious phase of life – childhood. I will be very careful about this from next time.
While writing this, a though passed through my mind – Why dont we follow the same process for adults too? Why do we want people to talk / behave with us the way, we want them to talk / behave? Everyone has different views and thats why this world is beautiful. Lets keep it beautiful 🙂