Shalini got ready and saw herself in the mirror. She continued staring herself. That black jacket was perfectly suitable with the strawberry pink skirt. Those pink and black bangles and the square RADO wrist watch. Those designer high heels and expensive clutch. Everything was so perfect. And a thought passed in her mind……May Ajay would have been here. He would have got mad. She smiled at herself. Ajay was really mad for Shalini and for her dressing sense, which was a big talk in their friend circle. Shalini badly wanted Ajay to be with her today, on her big day. Although Ajay called up in the midnight and wished her and sent flowers too but that was not enough for Shalini.
Ajay and Shalini had arranged marriage. But during that first meeting, they both realized that they were made for each other. Ajay appreciated her dressing style and beauty and Shalini was impressed with his sense of humor and easy nature. Love bloomed and every custom and ceremony followed were just a formality for both of them. They were so much in love that everything else was of no importance. Their honeymoon to GOA in the rainy season of July added a fuel to that fire of love. They talked, played, laughed, swam, made love and ate like crazy. Even today, each and every moment of that phase was so fresh in Shalini’s mind. They became shadow of each other. And when came back from honeymoon, friends and relatives started calling them “Made of each other”, rather than “Made for each other”. They were always in sync. If Ajay started some conversation, Shalini’s response was automatically so positive and most of the time Ajay will know Shalini’s secret wish before she spoke about it.
With time their relationship grew well and they understood more about respect and space for each other. Ajay got promotion and his company decided to send him to Australia for 2 years. But there was a condition. Ajay was not allowed to take his family with him till 1 year. There was a heart break. Ajay decided to leave the job but Shalini explained him, how important this opportunity was. She made him understand about the future and growth he was going to have after taking up this challenge. But she could not answer his question “will you be able to live without me? I won’t be able to”. Shalini felt a lump in her throat but strongly replied that she will manage and its compulsory for both of them to face that situation. To this, Ajay got ready to depart for Australia before 3 months.
Yes, its been 3 months and only Shalini knew how she had been living. The days were never longer like this and nights were sleepless. Whether alone at home or with friends or family, she always missed Ajay. She thought she had made a mistake by preparing Ajay for Australia. Although at heart, she knew what she had done was true. Nothing was able to change her mood. That singing parrot in balcony, that 52” LCD TV, that shopping to brand factory and that drive around. She felt totally incomplete without Ajay. At every moment, her heart wanted to run away and reach to Ajay. This loneliness was unbearable and unexplainable. She tried out many options but her mind was not ready to accept absence of Ajay and her heart was with Ajay. Most of the time she felt helpless and cried. Although she tried to attend those family functions and friend’s party and tried to be strong but inside she was broken and wanted to avoid people asking about Ajay.
On the other side, after reaching Australia, Ajay got very much busy with new work and culture. He hardly got time to call Shalini. He assumed that Shalini would be able to understand his situation and was dreaming of Shalini being with him after a year. Here, Shalini started thinking that Ajay had changed and was not responding.
I met Shalini just yesterday. She has changed totally. I talked with her for long duration and tried to understand her situation. I could feel her emotions as I have already passed through the same situation of loneliness. I tried to explain her that missing your love like mad and crying will hurt your love. In life, everyone faces this kind of loneliness in one or the other way. But you have to be strong. You need to understand priorities of life. And finally true love is not about being together, its about bonding together no matter how far you are from your love. Trust your love if its your love and make it strong. Yes, sometimes we cannot control our emotions but it should not be for longer. Remember good time you spent with the person, call him/her, say “I Love You” and move ahead. Wait for being together but don’t stop growth of yourself.
And I am seeing that spark in Shalini’s eyes. She is almost ready to forget about pain of loneliness. She has decided to pursue her long lost hobby and move ahead. Ajay is still with her at every moment but Shalini is still the same. She misses Ajay but she has decided to be strong. I am so happy for you Shalini. Keep it up !!!