Yes, its been 24 months and he, our prince (as they call l’étoile, in French) will turn 2, within few seconds. The star, who arrived with love and happiness and fall in my lap on the precious day. I wanted to write this since long, probably the day he born but could not. And then I always had excuses about everything and anything.
I am not sure, I was ever desperate to be a mother. In fact, I was afraid of losing that slim figure, mommy feeling and talkies and to be honest, cleaning the potty of baby. But I was already 31 and was feeling that time was slipping from hands. We (I and my husband) wanted someone with us for whole life. Someone, for whom we can earn, learn, dance, laugh, cry, cook, worry, live, die and be happy. Someone who can rule our minds and lives and who can ask us to do mysterious things at any point of time. We would be happy, we thought.
8th December, 2010 (yes, I still remember that day) and the clock was showing time as 08:10 p.m. I and my husband were with gynecologist and she declared that I was expecting. We just smiled at each other. I could not say anything. She just instructed me for some of the things to be taken care and we left for home. At home, we jumped, danced, hugged, laughed and cried together. Yes, we were going to be parents. I felt that excitement of someone being inside me. We were not able to sleep for the whole night. We just talked while laying down on the bed. We talked about how we will play with him/her, how we will take care of him, how we will make him ready for the world, our dreams and lot of things. In India, its illegal to investigate for the gender of the baby and one more excitement added was BOY or GIRL…..Although I and my husband knew in the heart that its going to be a boy and we addressed him as son always. For the first time in my life (yes, I emphasize that, for the first time), I was so happy. Really, being pregnant is the golden phase and for me the phase was already started.
Those 9 months, I would always like to re-live. That growing belly and that first kick, that first ultra sound and that baby shower. Those endless talks about the member who was supposed to complete the family word for us. We searched and read and implemented lots of things and took best care while that little one was growing and was learning to live life. We talked with him, we wrote to him, we prayed for his health, we worked for him, we planned for him…..Even after 24 months, I can feel those moments. I want to mention one thing over here. I continued working and worked till last moment of pregnancy. The expected due date was 21st July, 2011. Although the growth of baby since last couple of ultra sounds was showing that, he might come early.
Finally…..18th July, 2011 – I and my mom went to the gynecologist for the usual visit. I was advised to visit gynecologist, every 3rd day as it was the last phase of pregnancy. She did ultra sound and told me that everything was well. Although she mentioned one thing – the baby was gaining weight like anything and it seemed like normal delivery was almost impossible. She asked me to go for advanced ultra sound and I and my mom followed. At the advanced ultra sound, we came to know that baby had a tube around the neck and it was dangerous. We went to the gynecologist, by this time my husband came back from work. We decided to go for C-section. And the doctor advised me to admit in the hospital by mid night and we could have the surgery next day. We left for home. On the way, we went to temple and paid a final pray for the little one who was going to join us from next day. At home, we wound up as fast as possible. I sent e-mails to work and shared current status of project with the team. Called to US office about my condition and they wished me a luck. Took dinner and talked for a while. We were excited. And at 11:15 p.m., when rain was showing its love to us, I left for hospital with my brother in his car. My husband followed us. At hospital, we settled down. Took final pictures of my grown belly and slept while dreaming for the new world and new family member, the star of our life.
And the shiny sun rose. Doctor visited me and told me that we were going to try for normal delivery first. She gave me an injection and my water broke. My mom and my husband were accompanying me. We were talking and laughing but I was feeling slightly uncomfortable. I started chanting that MANTRA called NAVKAR in Jain. At 1:30 p.m. doctor took me on the table and asked me how I was feeling. She checked me again and one more ultra sound and finally concluded that normal delivery was not possible. She gave a call to anesthetist, pediatrician and two junior doctors. And the countdown began….
My doctor asked me to change in gown and took me on operation table where gang of doctors were present. I chanted the NAVKAR for the last time and said “I Love You” to my baby. My husband kissed me on my forehead and left the operation theatre. The anesthetist explained about anesthesia, its purpose and how its going to work. I was ok with that. He gave me an injection on my back and within few seconds I felt that I was not feeling anything. Doctors started the process and my husband was seeing me from the small glass window, outside the operation theatre. I was half awoke and tried to hear conversation between doctors. And finally, I heard those words – Push. Although they were not for me. The two junior doctors pushed and finally my baby breathed and cried. Yes, that was the only day, I was happy while my baby cried. The pediatrician cleaned him and directly brought him to me (I was still in Operation Theatre and doctors were taking stitches). He was crying hard with open mouth. The pediatrician told me that “It’s a SON” and I was on twelfth cloud. I kissed him and he took him for other observations. Meanwhile, I was transferred to the room, where I was supposed to spend next 5 days. Due to heavy bleeding, I was shivering and was asking for more and more warmth. Finally, when they provided heater, I felt better. My eyes closed while my son was still crying. My father gave him first food of his life (sweet good) and gave him blessings (btw, this was the secret wish – I always wanted my kid to be like my father-my role model). I kept opening and closing my eyes and tried to observe things but was quite sub conscious and wanted to sleep only. The day was almost over and the star was born. My lap and life was full today. I felt so grateful to the GOD and to this universe that they gave me a chance to experience the most beautiful phase of woman’s life. Today, I was complete. And here is the first picture of our star (unfortunately, we did not take much of the pictures on that day and that’s the biggest mistake, I know).
Today, he is 24 months old and passed through terrific two. Within last 2 years, we went through almost all the good and bad things about life. We had to do adjustments in each terms, I was supposed to join work, we had dreams about his life and our lives to fulfill, less sleep and more stress, less smiles and more fights, less togetherness and more separation…but all that was worth. Yes, that was worth for being a parent. For two years, we have been taking care of him like a little GOD. Even if he misses a single meal time, we get upset. We have accustomed ourselves in a way that he can get more time from us, we can play with him, laugh with him and dance with him.
Today, after 2 years, I can say, we have succeeded in many terms. All those sacrifices were worth. We are shaping his life in a good manner and will continue to do so. He is the healthiest kid in the playgroup. He keeps jumping and running for the whole day and never complains about tiredness. Thanks to our search on internet about healthy soups and recipes for kids J. His presence has brought togetherness in our lives. I and my husband are not able to spend even an hour together but that’s fine because we are spending it with our son – Sharvil.
I just want to convey one thing over here, to my beloved son – we love you so much and this birth story is a tribute to you, to your birth and to your presence in our lives. Stay shining my star…
I want to present some of the best (although all are best and it was tough for me to select) memories of his life :
- This is how we sent an SMS to announce his birth
Announcing the newest member of our family
Our new ray of sunshine
A baby boy stepped on to the world on 19th July, 2011
Proud parents —
- This is how we welcomed him and distributed sweets to friends and relatives
- Sharvil at his first birthday party
- And finally, Sharvil today, before a few hours of leaving for second celebration. Yes, we are excited.
Growing up with parenthood. 🙂