With so many questions and lots of confusion, Keya lay on floor and slept there. In the morning, when she woke up, whole body was in pain but routine duties were waiting. After saying bye to Vihan at school, she got busy in kitchen. NImit woke up and briefly hugged her. This routine process felt odd to her today but at the same time thoughts started flowing…..
After all, he cares for me so much…
How can I think of my happy marriage as cage?
Not everyone is lucky like me to have a husband like Nimit….
It’s me who is not able to do anything….I cannot blame Nimit for that….
On breakfast table, while sipping coffee, Nimit stared at her. This lady in low bun had changed his life completely, he thought to himself. Any man feels contented and be successful only when he feels peace at home…..I am lucky, he talked to himself.
Why are you looking so tired? Did not you sleep well last night? Nimit asked.
Keya came out from thought chain suddenly.
Just overworked, she made it short.
Please take rest and take care of yourself, Nimit continued.
Why does he cares for me so much?
How could I think of going away from this guy? He has given me life, again thoughts took over.
I am not suffering. I am happy where I am, she silently convinced herself.
But the creator of life knows about your happiness better than you. In the afternoon, when she reached school to pick Vihan, she saw Ankur. She literally started walking in opposite direction. She had decided to not face Ankur again.
I do not want to make myself realize what leaders do and how I should take out time to follow my passion, she said to herself sarcastically.
But…….Better plans, as I said 🙂
Hi Keya, how are you doing today? Ankur was standing in front of him when she reached the second gate of school.
With no option, she smiled briefly and nodded. She did not care to ask him his or Revati’s well being.
Ankur stared at her for 10 seconds….
Keya, you look drained….Are you OK? Can I help you? With genuine concern, he asked.
I am OK and my lovely husband cares for me so much. He showed same concern today morning and if anything, I have to do, I will do it, Keya replied rudely.
Ankur was taken aback.
He just smiled and shrugged. Not able to understand, what went wrong, Ankur decided to move away. Keya breathed deep and went to pick Vihan. But her mind was on work.
I was not supposed to be that rude.
He did not do anything wrong to me. He just showed concern. Her left mind processed.
But why should he? What difference does it make to him? The right mind was ready with argument.
Well, he might be just like this, with everyone. I am taking it too personally….the left mind resigned.
But she could not forgive herself. In the afternoon, when Vihan went for a nap, she accessed the Parents’ section in his Almanac. School was used to publish both parents’ phone numbers in almanac for the particular class so that parents can be in touch with each other. She searched for Ankur and found his phone number.
On dial pad, she entered the number but could not press Dial.
What will he think if I call him? Left mind started
Well, you just want to say sorry…there is no wrong signal. Right mind defended.
But he might be busy. I should not disturb him….left mind started finding excuses to not follow right mind.
Then leave message atleast, the right mind had instant solution.
Finally, she was convinced to say sorry via message. And this is how, the never ending message chain started.
[3:05:30 pm] keya : Hi Ankur, Keya here. Just wanted to say sorry about whatever happened at school gate today. I did not mean to hurt you.
[3:05:42 pm] Ankur : Hey keya, don’t be sorry. I was just concerned. Don’t think so much. Mood swings happen with everyone. I tolerate it everyday by being with Revati :-).
The prompt response and that “mood swing” word instantly spread smile on Keya’s face.
[3:06:22 pm] Keya : Thanks for the understanding. Revati is really lucky 🙂.
Keya was amazed at her own response but before she could think much, she realized the message was already delivered.
[3:06:40 pm] Ankur : Yeah, I too feel same way. Revati is lucky and Nimit is very lucky :-):-).
The statement violated her heart beats rate but she did not wanted to be over sentimental again.
[3:08:00 pm] Keya : Grass is always greener on other side :-):-).
[3:08:30 pm] Ankur : its only because we are habituated to see the greenery far away from us and have accepted that it cannot be ours.
Keya was dumbfounded. She did not expect one more life truth coming in flow of chat.
Do not want to start it again, let me cut it short, she told herself.
[3:12:00 pm[ Keya : So right. That’s how we have been nurtured and society has been formed.
[3:12:02 pm] Keya : Need to rush…..Thanks for your time Ankur.
Keya made it simple and short, without emotions and stared at phone screen.
[3:13:00 pm] Ankur : Sure Keya, please carry on. I will wait for your next message.
And again thought flow started at other end.
Why would he wait for my message? She kept thinking while preparing dinner, while evening walk, while talking with neighbors. Ankur was ruling her mind today. She kept looking at notifications but there was no more messages from Ankur.
On dinner table, when Nimit asked about her day, she was irritated.
My days are no different. I am not doing anything different. Just taking care of your home and kid, she said loudly.
Nimit was shocked by her reaction.
Is she the same keya? He thought to himself but decided to not argue and got busy with his phone.
Keya wrapped up kitchen, helped Vihan for his homework, tucked him in bed and got into shower. But thoughts were overwhelming.
Why he did not send any message if he was so eager to wait for it? Left mind.
The latest technology and instant messengers have made us so impatient. We want everything instant because wait is always difficult.
Finally on bed, while Nimit was still busy with his phone, she took her phone and checked messages and felt shiver. Ankur’s message was there, almost 15 minutes ago.
[10:15:03 pm] Ankur : Waited for your message for whole evening. Seems you are busy. Hope you are enjoying evening.
[10:32:14 pm] Keya : Yup, had a busy evening. Hope you are enjoying evening too.
Almost 10 minutes and there was no response. She kept checking phone. And now impatient, she started cursing herself.
I was not supposed to respond. Why did I do it? Left mind….
Oh come on, don’t be silly. The way you were busy, he might be busy too….Right mind.
But why should I think about him? Left mind….
But before right mind could respond, she heard one more notification tone and checked phone again. It was most awaited message this time.
[10:46:55 pm] Ankur : Oh yeah, had a good evening.
[10:46:58 pm] Ankur : Planning to sleep?
For a moment, keya felt jealous and weird. How come he can have good evening while I kept thinking about him for whole evening? She could not control the sarcasm…
[10:47:03 pm] Keya : Yeah, I thought so…you must have been enjoying evening because I did not see any message earlier.
[10:47:10 pm] Ankur : Wow, so you thought about me? Lucky I am J
[10:47:14 pm] Ankur : Would love to talk if you are not sleepy.
Keya was taken aback with this straight flirt statement.
[10:47:49 pm] Keya : Actually I am very sleepy. Good night.
And she saw one more prompt response.
[10:48:00 pm] Ankur : OK…Good night. Wake up happy. Talk to you soon.
Not sure where this chat was leading, Keya tried to sleep but one more consecutive night was waiting for her….to introspect, to silently blame, to decide something and to lay down on floor.
What do you think? Where this story should/would lead?