Love is an Adventure : Part – 19

Love is an Adventure : Part – 19

 

And a fresh morning arrived……

The first person Keya thought of was Ankur….I love him, her heart said and she smiled sadly.

Why she smiled sadly? Well, if you have not read past chapters of the story, read them here – Part-1, part-2, Part-3, Part-4, Part-5, Part-6, Part-7, Part-8, Part-9, part-10, Part-11, Part-12, Part-13, Part-14, Part-15, Part-16 , Part-17 and Part-18.

 

How can someone control the heart? No matter how immature he is, how jealous he feels at a time, how controlling he becomes in some situations,  I love him, she declared to herself.

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Her fingers automatically started typing…

Good morning 🙂. Hope you slept well.

After a wait of 5 seconds, when she did not see any response from Ankur, she continued,

We know how important and unique our connection is. Let’s forget the differences and smile together. I love you Ankur, before clicking on Send, she thought for a second whether she was doing right or not but love took over and message was sent.

And the moment she entered in kitchen, that special notification was there…..total three in a row. She opened the messenger quickly. Ankur had written….

Good morning my love….

Could not sleep much as negative and positive thoughts were on swing for whole night. Not sure why this has to happen to us. If we know, this is unique connection to us and its valuable, why don’t we respect it? Why to build a glass wall around us?

I hope someday you will understand how hurtful it is to feel like ignored.

Keya was taken aback. In a moment, her morning resolution to not be negative flashed out.

Is he blaming me after what all happened?

Wow….never knew I needed all those love theories again to understand which bond I am sharing with him.

Bitterness and negativity took over and she did not want to respond. She was regretting on her morning decision to send message to Ankur. But not responding was a not choice for her. That incident, when she read messages of Ankur and could not respond them immediately because she was driving, led to a half day arguments.

I do not want to start it again….Already feeling drained, she talked with herself and just sent a smile in response.

Immediately, Ankur responded,

Keya, I want to see you. When are we meeting?

She did not see message until Vihaan left for school and she sat with her morning tea. She responded,

I am sorry, got busy with morning routine of school time.

Meeting -I will be busy today and tomorrow.  Let’s plan any day after tomorrow.

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Of course, she wanted to meet him to hug him tight, to break down all those walls and to feel that love feeling again but all those wounds were still fresh for her. Her weak heart made her write response but her mind was in control today.

I am not going to meet him anymore. I know what he wants from me. If he was concerned about my feelings, he would have been careful but all he wants is my body. Once done, he will start arguing on any unexpected topic….her mind had valid argument.

Again, the response was immediate from Ankur.

Wow…..two busy days. Are you meeting someone special? 🙂

And that smile at the end of question irritated Keya to the core.

What is he thinking about me? Why these kind of questions at this moment? What will he achieve by being so sarcastic and possessive? She thought to herself.

Well, you should not be worried about all those things when we are away from each other, she shot back.

So right. I should not be concerned but I cannot control. You are so lovely and beautiful. I want you to be mine only, read Ankur’s message.

Ankur, that beauty can be deceiving but feelings are permanent, if you ever understand that, Keya was still not in mood to give up.

Oh darling, let’s forget the past. We know, we have future together. I am crazy for you and we know world is a happy place being together, Ankur’s message felt like a salty butter on bleeding wound.

Keya did not respond. for a while and phone kept buzzing….

Keya, I love you

Keya, I want to see you

Keya, you are my life.

Keya, you are my jaan.

Keya, I like your anger.

Keya, I know you love me too

Finally, she had to open the messenger and a smile was there again on her beautiful face.

You are crazy, Ankur, she wrote.

Of course, I am crazy. But only for you, my love, an immediate response made her smile again.

When are we meeting? Ankur started again.

I need to attend couple of inquiries for kids’ library today. Besides we met just yesterday and you had ate well J….Why are you hungry again? she responded.

Because my darling, you are amazing and skillful to drive any man crazy, Ankur’s response.

And yes, all those inquiries are local. You can attend them tomorrow. Your kids’ library is a temporary thing. For that you are denying to meeting time? Ankur’s words worked like an arrow to Keya’s heart.

Is this the same man who encouraged me to do something on my own?

Is this the same man whom I loved because I thought he understood me better?

Is this the same man for whom my thoughts and ideas were used to be a priority?

Not being able to control the anger mixed with feeling of stupidity of her own, made her furious. She tried to handle the conversation in calm manner but her disappointment was not hidden.

Ankur, I thought, it was you who encouraged me to do something on my own and that was the quality of yours, attracted me the most. You were the one who listened and loved every ideas of mine and made them better. And today, my things are temporary? Are you serious? I think, every big thing starts with a baby step and while I am still taking first step, I would have expected your supportive words rather than…..Keya left the sentence incomplete and wiped her tears.

Oh come on Keya, I was just kidding. You are still my priority and will be always. I did not know you will take it so seriously. Sorry, if I had hurt you. Focus on your kids’ library and we will plan some other time, Ankur responded.

Not sure whether it was sarcasm or not, Ankur’s message made Keya think again….

May be I took his statements to heart. He might not mean it. He loves me and I know it. How can I think anything wrong for him? Her heart started arguing with mind.

Keya did not realize Nimit’s presence while being in deep thoughts.

Hey Keya, everything ok? How are the things with Kids’ library? Nimit asked casually.

Yeah, going good….she responded absent mindedly and walked towards kitchen to get Nimit his favorite ginger tea.

But her heart was not at peace. Constant analysis of situation and guilt was in progress…

Ankur is also trying hard to take out time for meeting. How can I say no to him?

He has been available whenever I had asked him.

If he was interested in my body only, we would not have come so far.

Finally, she decided to postpone the inquires on next day and messaged Ankur….

In your fav pink shirt and white skirt, I will be waiting for you ….

With an expectation of immediate response, she kept checking her phone but for couple of hours, Ankur did not even check her message.

He was so eager to meet and now he does not have time to even check the message…..self thought made Keya uncomfortable.

Finally, after almost 3.5 hours of wait, she heard that notification. Immediately, she checked….

Sorry Keya, I was busy in business meeting. Could not check message.

Thank you my darling. Would love to see you. Around 6 pm? Can we meet @park-inn? I will book room there.

Can’t wait to see you my love.

With mixed emotions, Keya re-read those messages. Not sure what to do, she just typed “OK” and sent it.

In the evening, when she reached Park-inn, it was already 6:15 pm and Ankur was waiting for her in Room # 604, as he had mentioned in his message, just 15 minutes back. Hurriedly Keya entered into elevator and pressed #6. But that uncomfortable feeling took over again….

Am I doing right thing by meeting him in hotel room?

Why I am so mad for him that I am ready to risk everything?

What if someone catches even a glimpse of me in this hotel at this time?

What if Nimit comes to know about all this? He will never be able to trust me.

Until when I will keep meeting him like this? Whats the future of this?

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That beep of elevator broke her chain of thoughts and with slow steps; she started walking towards Room#604.

What happened next?

One more love making session or anything else?

How Ankur treated Keya?

Did Keya find peace of mind after meeting Ankur?

Did the roller coaster ride of emotions continued?

Yes, all answers are ready but you need to wait until next chapter….

Stay tuned 🙂

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Love is an Adventure : Part -17

Love is an Adventure : Part -17

Yessssss…….after a long and complete silence on this :-), I am here.

Alert – Long post ahead…..grab your cup of coffee :-). This story is soon going to be 18.

Previous parts of the story are available at – Part-1, part-2, Part-3, Part-4, Part-5, Part-6, Part-7, Part-8, Part-9, part-10, Part-11, Part-12, Part-13, Part-14, Part-15 and Part-16.

Hello, Keya did not want to attend that call from unknown number while still being in arms of Ankur, but had to.

Hello, Mrs. Nimit? I am Neeta from administration department in  Vihan’s school. He has been waiting here for half an hour now. I tried to reach Mr. Nimit but his phone is constantly engaged. Can you please come and pick Vihan as he is tired and cranky now? The voice at other end spoke in a breath.

And suddenly Keya felt a fall from skyscrapper….

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What the hell? How can I forget to pick Vihan? This is a result of this temporary, lust feeling for this unknown man, which is taking over my life and loved ones…she thought to herself while putting on clothes and tears rolled down. Guilt of missing Vihan’s pick-up time was killing her. But suddenly one more thought flashed in her mind.

What if the administrator would have talked with Nimit and would have told him about me not being there on time? How I would have answered Nimit’s questions?

She tried to control but could not stop tears. Ankur was confused about what was going on. He tried to hold Keya’s hand but she refused. He asked softly, whats wrong? Why are you crying like this? And that question of his acted like a bomb for Keya. Already irritated with herself, she looked straight into Ankur’s eyes and said,

I am not sure about you but I cannot put my family at risk to sleep with you. Never knew this is how its going to be….

And that statement boiled Ankur too. He shot back, Keya we both are adults and I have not pushed myself on you. Please be logical and don’t blame me for something where we both contributed and enjoyed.

Keya had rush of tears again but she did not have much time to argue. Finally, after buttoning her shirt, she opened the door of backseat and got off from the car. Before Ankur came out and could stop her or talk to her, she literally ran away towards her car.

In school, when she saw VIhan sitting alone on a bench in administrator office, she felt guiltier. She rushed to Vihan and hugged him tight. Vihan was taken aback for a moment but then he held her tight.

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Mumma, where were you for so long? I was scared being alone here, he said innocently.

Keya had tears again. She could not answer. She started walking towards car while holding Vihan’s hand. For the whole way back, Vihan kept talking about his day at school but Keya was somewhere else. She was still feeling horrible the way everything happened in last few hours. She never even imagined to sleep with any other man. That temporary joy of orgasm flashed out with real life gravity. At home, first thing she did was to take shower.  She just wanted to wash away every touch of Ankur. Of course, its like

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But that shower helped her to calm down. After lunch, when she checked her phone, there were couple of messages from Ankur.

Ankur :  Not sure what went wrong and why you were so upset with me? I did not anticipate the end of our beautiful time like that.

Ankur : keya, never feel guilt for anything. Life happens once only and you have all the rights to explore life the way you want. I will wait for your response. Love you forever!!

That last sentence worked as expected. In a moment, all frustration disappeared. Having someone who loves you and more than that, expresses the feeling so well, is rare. Keya felt bad the way she had acted but at the same time, her mind warned her to not fall for the trap again. She typed back …

Keya : I know, life happens once only but I cannot put my family at risk. I do not want to do this anymore. Never thought we will get into all this. Yes, I loved you and will love you forever but let’s keep it silent and serene.  

Ankur responded promptly….

Ankur : Thanks for responding my love. I was scared for a moment when you left like that.

Keya : I am really sorry about it but that nasty feeling of being at fault took over.

Ankur :  Well, I don’t understand it but I need to respect it.  Can I tell you something?

Keya : sure.

Ankur : I felt heavenly today. Being male its very different but let me tell you this. Melting into each other when you have right partner made me understand why they say physical intimacy is an important part for a couple. The way our bodies communicated and responded to each other was something, I had not watched in porn movies too 🙂.

Keya was taken aback with multiple confessions but unknowingly she bit her lower lip.

Keya : Ankur, we do not want to discuss or do it anymore. But I am surprised by knowing the fact that you are/were watching porn.

Ankur literally ignored first part of statement and responded to the second part.

Ankur : Everybody does…..and as far as I know, females more than males 🙂

Keya was surprised again…..

Keya : Oh really?

Ankur :  Oh yes. Don’t tell me, you never watched porn.

Keya : I did not…..never.

Now it was Ankur, who was shocked. This smart and gorgeously beautiful lady love of his life was telling him that she never watched porn. So innocent she is, he thought to himself.

Ankur : Keya, how did you pass through your college years? Anyways, will watch together….

Keya was stunned with Ankur’s courage to ask her to watch porn together.

Keya : Ankur, I told you, we do not want to get into it again. We are not meeting again. We will be good friends, if we want otherwise we need to say bye to each other.

Ankur : Keya, what do you think we did was wrong? Why expressing love in any form is bad just because we are married to different partners? Do you know, I don’t remember saying “I Love you” to Revati. Only with you, I experience that real love feeling.

And as it works with every female, that ONLY word made magic.

After all, he loves me only otherwise why he would have been spending so much time with me?, her heart took over.

Keya : so you never tell her “I Love you”?

Ankur : Never…..you?

Now Keya was confused. For her and Nimit, it was routine to express feeling with those words. But she knew that Ankur will not like that so she had to manipulate.

Keya : ummm…..for us, its not never but its on and off.

But after typing, she felt odd. With whom she was playing? The husband, who trusted her blindly or the man who claimed to love her the most or herself who was not able to decide what to do and how to control? And while she was still in introspection mode, that notification was there.

Ankur : Hey darling, I will have to rush. Revati has fixed a dinner evening with friend and will have to attend it. I will miss you. Have a happy evening J.

And suddenly Keya felt worse. Here, I have not called Nimit even once and he has to attend a party with his wife, whom he claims, never loved? When negativity takes over, control is very difficult. For the whole evening, she kept imagining how Ankur must have been enjoying evening with Revati and friends. Complete silence from Ankur made her feel poorer.

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He could have messaged once, she thought to herself.

Nimit was late today and Vihan was playing with friends. To divert mind, Keya started re-arranging Vihan’s room and while looking at those bunch of books of Vihan, an idea of kids’ library popped up.

Kids will have fun reading all these books and Vihan will have friends around, she thought. Being good at art and creativity, she created a simple poster about kids’ library on her phone and shared it in school group.  People started inquiring about it and she got busy.

Ankur will be happy to know it. Hope he sees the poster in school group soon, she talked with herself.

But did it happen? How Ankur reacted?

How Keya felt when she realized that the “only” word Ankur had used just before few hours was not true?

Did this temporary pleasure looking relationship died or moved on with objects on path?

Stay tuned 🙂

I promise, I will not make you wait more this time….

 

 

 

Love is an Adventure : Part – 16

Love is an Adventure : Part – 16

Past episodes of this love story are – Part-1, part-2, Part-3, Part-4, Part-5, Part-6, Part-7, Part-8, Part-9, part-10, Part-11, Part-12, Part-13, Part-14 and Part-15.

While struggling to be normal, Keya could not stop thinking how easily Ankur conveyed his thoughts about her character and how she can be with someone else too.

How can he even think so? Why at a time he gets so edgy and possessive? Did not I feel pain when I saw his picture with family, all smiling and happy? She thought to herself.

Do you know which moment I miss the most rightnow? Phone beeped with special notification tone. She read and smiled painfully.

I will never be able to understand this guy. At one moment, he is all lovey dovey and at second moment, he is doubting me, she struggled again whether to respond or not.

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Keya : ??

Ankur : That moment, when we were melting into each other…..your soft, pinky and wet lips were brushing mine and I loved that alien feeling.

Unknowingly Keya found herself biting her lower lip.

Keya : Ankur, you are an idiot…at one moment, you love me so much and at other moment, you are not ready to trust any of my statement.

Ankur : in that case, you are an idiot too….

Keya : what? How?

Ankur : Well, consider first part of your statement. You too are madly in love. I am just trying to find out who is that lucky one J

Keya smiled at his smartness to switch the track.

Keya : And you are monkey too…

Ankur : OK, as far as you are my partner, I am ready to do all monekygiri J

Keya : Means?

Ankur : Let’s do some monekygiri together…..are you up?

She took a second before responding…

Keya : Sure, why not?

Ankur : I love your spirit….you are always ready to do something new.

Keya : yeah, learning from you J. What are we planning to do?

Ankur : How do you like golgappa?

Keya : My all-time favorite.

Ankur : Wow….we are similar J. Lets meet rightnow at Pangat Golgappa. Every golgappa lover likes him. Let’s see how many we can gobble down while looking at each other…..ready?

Keya : ummmm…..

Ankur : come on…be sporty. I will see you @Pangat in 20 minutes. Love you and your smile.

Keya : ok 🙂

Hurriedly she changed to peach colored cap sleeve shirt and navy blue pant. When briefed in mirror, she smiled at herself.

Ankur winked at her the moment they both faced each other. Despite noon time, Pangat was crowded and they waited for their turn. There was no chance to talk but both were feeling each other’s presence. Ankur kept staring Keya and whistled. Keya was surprised with widened eyes. She smiled at him and he winked again.

Finally, it was their turn. They faced each other and the waiter started serving golgappa to both of them.

10, 20, 25….Keya was not able to take it more but she did not want to lose. She winked at Ankur and Ankur almost lost his balance. The plate fell down from his hands and before he could react, Keya jumped – Yay, I won.

You cheated, he claimed while getting down from Pangat.

I don’t think so. If you cannot take my wink, not sure what else can you do, Keya said playfully.

Oh, so you want to see what I can do, Ankur looked into her eyes and smiled.

Sure only if you can do something, Keya was still playful.

OK, let’s show you what I can do, Ankur smiled mischievously.

Sure, I am eager to know. But please consider time. I have only an hour before I will have to pick up Vivaan, Keya smiled.

Really depends….but let’s try, he whispered in her ears and asked her to follow.

But idiot, we are not going to do anything wrong, Keya was concerned but in masti mood.

My idiot, we will define that wrong word later on. Follow me please, Ankur’s voice was commanding.

They walked almost half kilometer and Ankur opened the back door of his Rover, parked in a corner of street.

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Without question but with rapid heartbeats, Keya got in the back seat and at other moment, Ankur jumped in. Suddenly that uncomfortable silence took over. Ankur was sitting almost a centimeter away from her. She tried to keep her thoughts straight but….

So you want me to show what I can do, right? Ankur took her hand in his.

Well, I told you…we do not want to do anything wrong, she looked into his eyes but suddenly stole the sight just like a lady who surrenders.

Do you really think there is anything wrong in love? Ankur’s hand was now in her hair.

Ankur……Keya could not speak much.

Ankur cupped her face in his hands and pulled her nearer. His lips started brushing hers and both of them suddenly felt at loss of breathe. Suddenly the back seat felt like a bed of roses. Suddenly both of them were in sync – breathing and talking with eyes.

Ankur’s hand started working on her body. Some mountains, some flat land and finally valley….Each touch was electrifying and Keya was out of control. When Ankur’s hand reached to check the index of wetness, he was amazed.

Oh my God, you are already ready, he winked at her.

She opened the tightly closed eyes and those eyes and heavy breathe of hers begged him to satisfy her.

Ankur removed his pant hurriedly while constantly kissing her. And in between all doubts, playfulness, fun, arguments and thoughts, when the Adam-Eve touch happened, they felt heaven on earth. Both were amazed the way they felt so close to each other and how passionately they made love. At heart, both of them silently compared this love session with real life partner and knew that even 1% of this passion was not present there. Keya kept responding and Ankur kept driving and finally when both of them reached climax, Keya cried loud, out of happiness and satisfaction. Climax for female is underrated or ignored for long. Keya was never aware or never cared about climax. But today, when she felt that mountain peak under feet, she could not stop smiling.

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They lied down in same position for 10 minutes, without speaking a word and Ankur constantly kissing her. Keya loved that killer smile of him and those deep eyes of him were saying how happy he was. She smiled and looked at him. He smooched her for one more time.

And suddenly that villain phone rang.

What do you think? Who must have called up at that time?

Did keya run away?

What happened to them? When did they meet next and what was the agenda?

Stay tuned for all the answers :-).

Hidden Honeymoon Treasures in Photos

Hidden Honeymoon Treasures in Photos

Honeymoon is a lifetime memory and everyone wants to make it happy memory. Gone are the days when one was visiting any overrated location as part of honeymoon. Now a days, people seek adventure, some nature, some peaceful time with each other but of course, at a photogenic location. Here are the 3 international destinations, I have visited and felt like they are hidden treasure for honeymoon. Have a look!!

  1. The Sun Moon Lake, Taiwan

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2. Bambu Indah Resort, Bali

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3. Boracay beach, Philippines

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4 silent answers to most striking questions, being on first step of 40’s

Just a first day of being into 40th year of existence and I think, I have gained lot more wisdom about life (regardless of my look and act). Want to know how my mind speaks when I hear those superbly crafted questions?

Read on….

  1.   Where are you?

[My silent answer] : Well, right now, on call with you and rather than that its NOYB :-). FYI, I can be/live/take care of myself. If you are not known where I am means, I do not want you to know 🙂

  1. (But) why do you want to do it?

[My silent answer] : For 39X365X24X60 minutes, I tried a lot to fit but “unfit” experience seems cool, If you are asking me WHY that means I am doing something right/interesting/exciting/unique….and I want you to stay tuned to see outcome :-).

  1. Who was with you at that restaurant?

[My silent answer] : Well, I have pulled back that right from market. Just FYI, no one is allowed to ask that question. After living almost 4 decades in “human society”, I feel, I am an adult and know my boundaries and values. Thanks for the concerns (of digging about me and behind me).

  1. What has changed you so much?

[My silent answer] : Seriously, even I want to find that answer. Why “being human” experience did not feel good? But you know what? If you have not changed in a while, you are rotten. I am living life atleast 🙂

And last but not the least, do you want to know how does it feel to be into 40s?

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I hope, you too feel the same way about me :-)…..