With a promise to grow this adolescent story into adult, here is another chapter. Previous chapters are – Part-1, part-2, Part-3, Part-4, Part-5, Part-6, Part-7, Part-8, Part-9, part-10, Part-11, Part-12 and Part-13.
After entering into her cove, the kitchen, first thing Keya did was checking Ankur’s messages rather than switching on the coffee pot. She saw almost 6-7 long messages from Ankur. While holding her breathe, she started reading….
Ankur : I love you Keya.
Ankur : I know, at a time, we both will feel guilty about finding the love of life while looking at our social status and responsibilities. But do you know what? We have been programmed like that…since childhood. And the algorithm is, never be happy when its about you.
Ankur : Keya, tell me the last time, you ate your favorite ice-cream alone and were happy? Tell me the last time, you spent time on your hobby and did not feel guilty about not giving that time to your kid?
Ankur : Dear, not all the people in world find true love. 80% of those, who found have lost it due to one or the reason, and are in pain. We are lucky to have found each other. And before those never experienced feelings blossom, you want me to stop.
Ankur : Just ask yourself, will it be easier for you to get over the feeling?
Ankur : Not sure what you will decide for future and for us but I know, I love you and I will love you forever.
Keya re-read the messages 10 times before Nimit entered in kitchen, looking for coffee. She slid the phone in her pant pocket and started preparing coffee. But her mind was already on a long journey. Within moments, it felt like the struggle between mind and heart was over.
I have all the rights to be happy and I do want to see the life beyond this house and housewife things, she spoke to herself. After handing cup of coffee to Nimit and holding one for herself, when she came out of kitchen, Vivan came running to her and sat in her lap. Within a moment, thought train started again,
How will Vivan feel if he comes to know that I love someone else?
How will everyone think about me when they come to know that a married and settled female like me and a mother in addition has an extra marital affair?
But before her mind could put more stress, she heard another notification and could not resist the urge to read it.
Ankur : I know you have read my messages for multiple times by now and your no response is killing me. Please respond, my love.
Not knowing what to respond to those long statements, She typed fast when Nimit and Vivaan started another game of home cricket.
Keya : I love you….In you, I have found best friend and love of life.
And the second moment, phone buzzed for multiple times.
Ankur : Thank you my Love.
Ankur : I wanted to tell you something but before I could, you ran away…
Ankur : Do you know, you are like a butterfly? Colorful, chirpy, happy flying and light 🙂
That made Keya smile.
The chat went on and on until late afternoon. Lots of sharing about likes/dislikes, wishes, desires, leg pulling, philosophy and fun happened. Keya kept reading his messages and kept responding while Nimit was away or was not watching her. Secretly she felt so fortunate to have someone compatible in terms of thoughts, passion and taking fun in right way with clever response. She loved Ankur more for the way he intelligently responded her playful statements and showing affection at the same time. Every time, unconsciously her mind compared Ankur and Nimit.
Nimit would have never understood forget about responding the clever statements, she thought. Nimit was never a person of words. He would always speak less, would be busy with himself and his little projects. Although he had been a supportive husband, Keya never felt the warmth she had felt with Ankur. As an adult, you want to talk with someone who understands the sentence after you speak first word, you love hanging out with a person who has multiple stories to tell, you wish to be with one who possesses same interests or atleast encourages you.
At one point, she wondered, how Ankur must be managing the situation at home, while constantly responding her messages, as she knew Revati was used to love being around her husband all the time, as she had mentioned once in female gossiping session while waiting for kids outside school. She thought to ask but controlled herself. I should not get into details, as far as he is responding. And I know, he loves only me, she thought to herself.
From where that “only me” came to my mind? she wondered but before she could think much about it, that notification tone was again there.
Ankur : Hey Keya, I will connect back later. Heading out with Revati and kids. They love going out, especially on Sunday I will miss you. Wish we were together.
For a moment, keya felt jealous for Revati. The way, Ankur wrote that Revati loved to be out, she did not like it. She felt angry and upset and low at the same time.
Although she did not respond, Ankur did not ping again and that made her more upset.
Seriously, he does not care what I am thinking and how I am feeling at the moment. He must be busy enjoying with his family. And what am I doing here? I bluntly denied Nimit’s proposal to go out as I was expecting Ankur to be available for chat. I am foolish, she talked to herself. Few moments and sudden mood change.
She went to Nimit and asked him if they can go out as Vivaan would love it. Nimit, as usual, did not say no. Three of them headed to fun fair and enjoyed the evening. For a moment, she forgot Ankur and loved being childish with Vivaan. Nimit was happy seeing her happy.
On the way back, they stopped by at restaurant for dinner. And while they were waiting for dinner to be served and were chatting happily, that notification was there. For a moment, she decided to not look at phone but the next moment, her heart helped in changing that decision. She looked at phone screen.
Ankur : Hi love. Busy evening? You have not responded previous messages too. Hope you are enjoying evening.
And her anger tested the limit now. She checked time. Almost 4 hours, after he realizes that I have not responded? Now as he is back, he has noticed my no response, she thought and promptly responded.
Keya : Out with family as they love to. Yes, enjoying fully. Will connect back later.
She pushed the back button harder to get out of the chat app asap and literally threw the phone in her purse. She heard multiple notifications but was not in mood to attend them. If he has dedicated family time, so should I, she thought with irritation. At one end, she wanted to read all those messages, wanted to chat with Ankur and on other end, she was extremely disappointed the way Ankur disappeared for few hours on the name of family time. Struggle continued between mind and heart and she was cranky.
After reaching home, she just wanted to throw herself in bed but preparation for next day kept her busy. With each special notification, her irritation grew. She wanted to read those messages but she wanted to control herself by not reading them. She wanted Ankur to know that she was upset.
Finally, when she entered in bedroom, Nimit was already asleep. She looked at him in lamp light and suddenly felt guilty. How can I cheat this man? He gave me life and position in society, she thought to herself.
In bed, she could not sleep for long and finally gave in to the demand of heart. She looked at the messages….
What the messages read?
Was everything fine between Ankur and Keya?
Was Ankur available to respond?
Wait to read 🙂