Life Happens…..

Life Happens…..

In between some hugs and push

Life happens

In between some tears and laughs

Life happens

In between some dreams and realities

Life happens

 

But when life happens in dark

It seems worthless

It feels meaningless

It appears hopeless

 

I still rejoice those visuals

I still cherish those memories

I still smile at those moments

 

But somewhere…

Heart is empty and insensitive now

Mind is numb and mute now

Body is shivering and dead now

 

This too shall pass, I tell to myself…

This will happen again, mind argues….

I will not be able to live this again, heart cries….

 

And it’s a day to conclude

It’s a point to decide

It’s a moment to determine

 

Whether I want to live or die slowly

Whether I want to be happy or feel paralyzed

Whether I want to adore happy memories or create bad memories

 

And I will choose to live, to be happy and to adore memories

Because my love,

True love is always about lifting life up…in physical presence or absence

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Love is an Adventure : Part – 16

Love is an Adventure : Part – 16

Past episodes of this love story are – Part-1, part-2, Part-3, Part-4, Part-5, Part-6, Part-7, Part-8, Part-9, part-10, Part-11, Part-12, Part-13, Part-14 and Part-15.

While struggling to be normal, Keya could not stop thinking how easily Ankur conveyed his thoughts about her character and how she can be with someone else too.

How can he even think so? Why at a time he gets so edgy and possessive? Did not I feel pain when I saw his picture with family, all smiling and happy? She thought to herself.

Do you know which moment I miss the most rightnow? Phone beeped with special notification tone. She read and smiled painfully.

I will never be able to understand this guy. At one moment, he is all lovey dovey and at second moment, he is doubting me, she struggled again whether to respond or not.

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Keya : ??

Ankur : That moment, when we were melting into each other…..your soft, pinky and wet lips were brushing mine and I loved that alien feeling.

Unknowingly Keya found herself biting her lower lip.

Keya : Ankur, you are an idiot…at one moment, you love me so much and at other moment, you are not ready to trust any of my statement.

Ankur : in that case, you are an idiot too….

Keya : what? How?

Ankur : Well, consider first part of your statement. You too are madly in love. I am just trying to find out who is that lucky one J

Keya smiled at his smartness to switch the track.

Keya : And you are monkey too…

Ankur : OK, as far as you are my partner, I am ready to do all monekygiri J

Keya : Means?

Ankur : Let’s do some monekygiri together…..are you up?

She took a second before responding…

Keya : Sure, why not?

Ankur : I love your spirit….you are always ready to do something new.

Keya : yeah, learning from you J. What are we planning to do?

Ankur : How do you like golgappa?

Keya : My all-time favorite.

Ankur : Wow….we are similar J. Lets meet rightnow at Pangat Golgappa. Every golgappa lover likes him. Let’s see how many we can gobble down while looking at each other…..ready?

Keya : ummmm…..

Ankur : come on…be sporty. I will see you @Pangat in 20 minutes. Love you and your smile.

Keya : ok 🙂

Hurriedly she changed to peach colored cap sleeve shirt and navy blue pant. When briefed in mirror, she smiled at herself.

Ankur winked at her the moment they both faced each other. Despite noon time, Pangat was crowded and they waited for their turn. There was no chance to talk but both were feeling each other’s presence. Ankur kept staring Keya and whistled. Keya was surprised with widened eyes. She smiled at him and he winked again.

Finally, it was their turn. They faced each other and the waiter started serving golgappa to both of them.

10, 20, 25….Keya was not able to take it more but she did not want to lose. She winked at Ankur and Ankur almost lost his balance. The plate fell down from his hands and before he could react, Keya jumped – Yay, I won.

You cheated, he claimed while getting down from Pangat.

I don’t think so. If you cannot take my wink, not sure what else can you do, Keya said playfully.

Oh, so you want to see what I can do, Ankur looked into her eyes and smiled.

Sure only if you can do something, Keya was still playful.

OK, let’s show you what I can do, Ankur smiled mischievously.

Sure, I am eager to know. But please consider time. I have only an hour before I will have to pick up Vivaan, Keya smiled.

Really depends….but let’s try, he whispered in her ears and asked her to follow.

But idiot, we are not going to do anything wrong, Keya was concerned but in masti mood.

My idiot, we will define that wrong word later on. Follow me please, Ankur’s voice was commanding.

They walked almost half kilometer and Ankur opened the back door of his Rover, parked in a corner of street.

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Without question but with rapid heartbeats, Keya got in the back seat and at other moment, Ankur jumped in. Suddenly that uncomfortable silence took over. Ankur was sitting almost a centimeter away from her. She tried to keep her thoughts straight but….

So you want me to show what I can do, right? Ankur took her hand in his.

Well, I told you…we do not want to do anything wrong, she looked into his eyes but suddenly stole the sight just like a lady who surrenders.

Do you really think there is anything wrong in love? Ankur’s hand was now in her hair.

Ankur……Keya could not speak much.

Ankur cupped her face in his hands and pulled her nearer. His lips started brushing hers and both of them suddenly felt at loss of breathe. Suddenly the back seat felt like a bed of roses. Suddenly both of them were in sync – breathing and talking with eyes.

Ankur’s hand started working on her body. Some mountains, some flat land and finally valley….Each touch was electrifying and Keya was out of control. When Ankur’s hand reached to check the index of wetness, he was amazed.

Oh my God, you are already ready, he winked at her.

She opened the tightly closed eyes and those eyes and heavy breathe of hers begged him to satisfy her.

Ankur removed his pant hurriedly while constantly kissing her. And in between all doubts, playfulness, fun, arguments and thoughts, when the Adam-Eve touch happened, they felt heaven on earth. Both were amazed the way they felt so close to each other and how passionately they made love. At heart, both of them silently compared this love session with real life partner and knew that even 1% of this passion was not present there. Keya kept responding and Ankur kept driving and finally when both of them reached climax, Keya cried loud, out of happiness and satisfaction. Climax for female is underrated or ignored for long. Keya was never aware or never cared about climax. But today, when she felt that mountain peak under feet, she could not stop smiling.

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They lied down in same position for 10 minutes, without speaking a word and Ankur constantly kissing her. Keya loved that killer smile of him and those deep eyes of him were saying how happy he was. She smiled and looked at him. He smooched her for one more time.

And suddenly that villain phone rang.

What do you think? Who must have called up at that time?

Did keya run away?

What happened to them? When did they meet next and what was the agenda?

Stay tuned for all the answers :-).

The Crazy House : A photo story to not miss

The Crazy House : A photo story to not miss

What do you expect when you read “Brilliant”, “Brave” or “quintessentially cosmic” adjectives for a specific structure in corner of a little city in Vietnam? As a tourist, you might imagine something beautiful but crazy (as the name suggests) and believe me, you will not regret your time visiting this one of the Top 10 Strange Buildings in the world.

Started as personal project by Hang Nga, this wonderful piece of architecture proves that not following commons and standards is uncommon.

I know, you love pictures rather than my words and therefore I will try to be mum while you enjoy virtual treat. While drinking the beauty, do not forget to look into details and imaginations executed….

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Hope you enjoyed the tour to Crazy House…..If asked, I would say, no picture can justify the beauty of this building and that means, book your tickets for Da Lat, Vietnam 🙂

Love is an Adventure : Part -15

Love is an Adventure : Part -15

Previous parts of story will give you better idea about the couple, I am talking about. Read them here – Part-1, part-2, Part-3, Part-4, Part-5, Part-6, Part-7, Part-8, Part-9, part-10, Part-11, Part-12, Part-13 and Part-14..

In dark, while facing the brightness of mobile phone, Keya started reading Ankur’s messages. 

Ankur : I missed you so much today evening. Wish, you were with me.

After 4 hours of silence, he feels, he missed me, she smiled with sarcasm.

But before she could continue reading messages, pop-up of another message in school group got her attention. Keya opened the school group chat and saw Revati had posted a family picture with happy faces and with a caption, Evening well spent.

Keya was agitated now. He is telling me he missed me for evening but happiness on his face tells me different story, she spoke silently to herself. She felt tears on her cheeks.

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Whats going on? She wondered.

She went back to Ankkur’s chat and resumed reading,

Ankur : I am missing you so much. Good that you are having fun evening.

Ankur : I wish you were here. Everyone in the home is sleeping and I am awake, thinking about you.

Ankur : I hope your real life fun will not overtake our bonding and our time.

Wow, he is thinking about me when he has no one around. I am the last priority or priority of the night, Keya felt worse about herself.

If he has fun evening, its family time. If I have some fun with my family, it’s a matter of doubt, she kept talking to herself.

Tired and exhausted, she dozed off with phone in hand. But could not sleep much. After being awake early in the morning, she checked Ankur’s message as first thing.

Ankur : Good morning !!No smile for the new day and no regret about what he did, she thought. But again thinking about the love she felt for Ankur swept off the negatives of last night. She responded…

Keya : Hi, Good morning 🙂

Keya : Hope you slept well…

Promptly Ankur responded,

Ankur : Yes.

Keya was taken aback with that short and blunt response.It should be me, who should be upset, she thought.

As she had still sometime before she had to start the routine day, she made herself coffee while waiting for Ankur’s message but she was disappointed.

Finally, she could not keep patience.

Keya : Hey, whats wrong? Didn’t you sleep well?

Ankur : Not sure why this is happening to me. Why I have to feel bad again and again.

Keya was dumbfounded. Whats happening to him again and again.

Keya : What happened?

Ankur : I don’t want to talk about it because I think I need to learn how to rest my mind.

Now, Keya was growing impatient, furious and confused.

Keya : But what happened?

Ankur : Keya, I could not sleep much last night and whenever I checked you, you were almost available online for whole night.

Keya : Ohhhh…..while reading your messages, I dozed off.

Ankur : Look Keya, I have nothing to do with it and I know I do not have any right to ask or suggest how you should live life but it hurts. I am OK if someone else is there in your life. But please be truthful.

Keya felt like someone had pushed her from 28th floor to the ground floor.

How in the world he can think of like that? Tears rolled down again.

He is the one I love and he feels that I am with someone else?

She promptly took a screenshot of chat app and sent it to Ankur (not knowing, which trap she was getting into) and wrote –

Look at it. I had been talking with you since last night. All of others are marked for Yesterday.  

For a moment, when she did not see Ankur’s response, she thought, Ankur was convinced and everything will be normal soon. But after 5 minutes, she read the message….

Keya, technology can be altered and anyone can do it now a days. We have been talking for days now. I have never seen you online like yesterday night.

That hit Keya high.

What? I am presenting the proof and he is not ready to believe with stupid arguments, she thought.

Keya : Ankur, I am not techie as you know. I cannot alter something in minutes. Please trust me. I have loved you and only you.

But at the same time, a thought flashed in her mind, why I have to give him a proof or assure him for multiple times for the foolish thoughts of his mind. I know, Nimit is observing changes in me but still he has never spoke this kind of direct statement.

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But again, before she could nurture the thought much, another message was there…

Ankur : Yes Keya, I do not have any option other than trusting you but I am hurt.

And his words made her feel guilty about not being able to clarify things. She kept asking herself if she could have done better in convincing Ankur.

Finally, after some resistance at both ends, things were normal between two by afternoon. But Keya did not know what she had done.

By providing proof, she had invited new problem for her life. True love never needs proof as words are trusted blindly and if it needs proof, its not true love.

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Did she know that she will be asked or expected to provide proof every time while providing that proof innocently? 

Did she know that she will be made feel bad and guilty for the proofs she would be presenting? 

And most importantly, despite all the arguments for days, did Keya accepted Ankur’s proposal to meet again? If yes, what happened during that meeting? 

Want answers?

Stay tuned 🙂